Well. I know one thing, it's definitely been a long time since I've updated. It's bad of me, I know, and I tell myself all the time I'm going to update again more frequently. But, you can see how far that's gotten me.
Tonight's blog title explains my new year. It's been a low key night, here by myself, watching TV and kicking back in my dad's recliner. At first I was a little bummed that I wasn't down on Church St. braving the cold and wind to hustle and bustle with the best of them, but the peace and quiet has been welcoming tonight, a nice change from all the rest of 2008. So, I've decided that I'll ring in 2009 like a lamb, here and quiet by myself, just reflecting on the past year.
It's been quite a whirlwind. As per usual, I can't remember much of the beginning. I rang in my 21st birthday this year, which also coincided with the Super Bowl. None the less, I spent my 21st birthday right in my second home, the theater. I had rehearsal for the Short Works Festival until 10pm that night, and then I crossed the street and cracked open my first legal beer with Laura in the neighborhood favorite bar, Mckees. Little did I know that this would become the home of many great hangouts, and long, serious conversations with friends, and of course, the first place to start off our Halloween celebration.
Most of the first months of 2008 were consumed with school, work, and extra curriculars of course. Some of my favorite memories include the Mox-Off 2008 with some Phoneathon favorites, Spring Meltdown, and watching the sunset down by the water front.
April brought about the end of school, and another first for me--my first year staying in Burlington for the summer. It was a change, but I knew it was necessary--not only for school and internships, but also mentally. It had been time for me to start breaking off from the homestead, and this was a good transition. It was a summer of internships, working at Blockbuster (which, secretly, has been a job I've wanted since I was a kid haha), and being able to roam about on my own, experience a legendary "Burlington Summer". If for nothing else, I loved it for the scenery. Burlington is beautiful, no matter what season you view it in.
The end of the summer brought about many, many changes, and a true experience I'll never forget for better or for worse. This was the beginning of the United Nations Project and a once in a lifetime opportunity to visit South Africa. For someone who had never been abroad in her life (save Canada, if that counts I guess.) this was such an amazing opportunity that I couldn't have been more thankful for. Little did I know, it was going to mean fighting with Residential Life about keeping my RA position, which ultimately did not happen. It meant changing my life around for this project, losing monies I would have received, and moving out of an apartment I had just lived in for the past 4 months or so. For someone who doesn't favor drastic change, this was a hard experience for me, but it was probably necessary. It taught me to never give up in what I believe in, to listen to my heart. My head told me to bow out and to keep what I already had, my heart told me to take this incredible opportunity.
...And it changed my life.
The fall brought new roommates, new living situations, new friends, new faces, new classes. The leaves proved for good photography, and taking my brother's senior portraits truly made it apparent that he's growing up from the exuberant, laughing, bouncy blonde haired little boy that I'd seen him as all along. Yet, it made me appreciate him even more.
Halloween made an appearance, filled with costumes and guest lecturing and friendly get-togethers. Soon the leaves fell and so did the snow, bringing along with it Thanksgiving and other related festivities. Christmas was small, but its one of the few times all 3 of us are together, and its something I cherish. And now, here I sit as the new year silently rolls in, with nothing but the sounds of Robin Spielberg's piano music to accompany me as I write this. I welcome it.
Wow, there were so many things I wanted to write here that I thought about prior to starting this. I had thought that save Africa, 2008 had been a pretty rough year with many tears and family drama. But on second glance, although it's been hard, each experience has helped me grow exponentially. Every tear cried is another layer of thicker skin, I guess. I've realized that my family really can survive just about anything. We've been through so much, and every time there's problems I fear the worst and wait for the day that it will completely shatter everything we've got. And yet, the day has never come *knock on wood*. We've gotten through it, worked through it. We've always survived.
And through everything, I've survived. There were times I thought I was down for the count, and wasn't sure how I was going to be able to hold on to what little sanity I had. And yet, here I am, still holding on to that same bit of sanity. Atleast, I think so, haha. Every year past has brought on more and more things to break me down, and I've survived. It really gives me hope for the future that I'll be fully prepared to shoot out of the college gates into life.
But the best thing about 2008 are the people that have come into my life or stayed with me in my life. I know most people say what they're Thankful for at Thanksgiving and such, but as the new year settles in, I want to remember what I'm most thankful for and hope that it all carries over into the new year.
First, there are the people who have always been in my life...my family. They've been my rock. They're the ones I call and bitch about my life to, the ones I call when I'm having a mental breakdown and in tears from stress. There have been times that I thought I'd lost them, and they've caused me great stress, but they've brought me great happiness, which is something I wouldn't trade for the world.
Second, there are these friends that have been in my life, and no matter what I do, they just don't ever want to seem to leave! They make me laugh, they make me smile, they keep my spirits up. They're amazing, to say the least. Some of them I don't get to see as nearly as much as I'd like, but no matter what, we always kind a way to keep in touch, from a facebook message, to an im, to a text message. I love them more than words can say. And of course, there's my other 2/3, the other two Sherry's. Together, we make Sherry Cubed. And I don't think I could survive without them. Really.
But even though I'll always owe my life to my family and my friends, there's a certain group of friends I'm especially thankful for this year--these special boys that live down the hall. In just a matter of months, their apartment has become my second home (although technically it really WAS my second home, cuz I definitely lived in that apartment haha) and I've experienced many hours of entertainment from movies, to video games to general shenanigans. But most of all, they've been there for me, more than any guy friend I've ever had. When they first said they were going to come to my fall show, I was skeptical. But they were persistent and excited about it. As much as I wanted to be excited, I didn't think they'd be there. But when I looked out that night, there they were. Just for me. I felt so incredibly special, I'd never had guy friends not only come out to a show, but also be excited about it. To want to come. Ever. It was then that I knew these boys really, truly wanted to be friends. These boys have been there for me, supported me, come to my shows, been my shoulder to cry on. They've been awesome sledding partners, movie watchers, and conversationalists ; They even pushed my car down 5 flights in the parking garage to the tow truck when it was dead and picked me up from work when I was carless. I've never had guy friends that have put in just as much effort into a friendship...ever. They've become like my brothers and sometimes I tend to pull out the "mama hen" on them, but it's only because I care about them so much. I'm so honored to say that I'm friends with them, and I can't wait for the many more adventures that await in the coming months. I guess what I want to say is... thanks. You guys are nothing short of amazing. <3
And then there are those that I've slightly lost touch with, the friends I hope to spend more time with who I've drifted apart from, and those that are just blossoming. I know sometimes that school and work and other such obligations can consume a great portion of your time (I'm probably the guiltiest!) and sometimes we just don't have as much time for hanging out as possible. But, nonetheless, I haven't forgotten about any of you. I really hope to be able to spend more time with all of you, especially those that are graduating in the Spring.
Love you guys. ALL of you.
2008 has been a roller coaster of a ride, with plenty of thrills and chills. My heart has cried, broken, healed, and rejuvinated. I've learned more about myself and others around me, grown closer to some and drifted apart from some. I've been to places I'd never imagine I'd go to but suffered incredible losses at the same time. Overall, it's been an amazing ride, but after 365 days, I'm ready to get off. It's time to try out the newest thrill in town, 2009. Hop in, buckle up and let's hope for one hell of an amazing time!
Disclaimer: I've realized I write like a drunken, blabbering collegiate broad with emotional dribble when I get distracted and fill the void with "I love you so much"s and "amazing"s falling all over the place. I also develop a sudden loss of energy to go back and change the verbage. Unlike a drunken broad, however, I DO mean everything I said, I WILL remember what I wrote here... (and I wont be an STD grab bag when I wake up tomorrow)....I just wish I had worded it a little bit better. In any case, you all know what I mean...
One Love.
2009 is in like a lamb, here's to ringing it out like a lion in December. Cheers.
Showing posts with label Champlain College. Show all posts
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Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
Tedious Work
So, I'm sitting here at the EMC (Champlain's Emergent Media Center, for those that don't know what I'm talking about) and thought I'd take a quick breather from my work to update on the United Nations Violence Against Women project.
Needless to say, although the trip to South Africa was hands down the most amazing experience I've ever had in my life, it wasn't a vacation. We worked tirelessly to gather as much information as we could in the short timespan of 10 days. Now many are wondering...what are you going to DO with the information?
Well, here's where the "fun" starts. We've spent the last few weeks transcribing all the audio that we collected from the various interviews that we conducted while we were there. For those that aren't familiar with transcribing, its the process of typing/writing out the entire interview, word for word. Literally--word for word. While this seems like a tedious but fairly do-able task, we've encountered a few obstacles that has made the process even more daunting.
First, we didn't have top of the line audio recording equipment. Many of us had simple voice recorders, and some even used the audio recording function on their digital cameras. We had to use what we had available in order to make sure every interview was recorded, no matter what the quality. Second, there was the issue of the heavy South African accents. And, in many of the recordings the interviews were competing with a great deal of background noise. Needless to say, this has been a tough process. But, the dilligent workers of the project have pushed through it and completed many, many, MANY hours of transcribing.
The next task was for the group to sit down and talk about common themes that we saw through the transcription process as well as when we digitized all of the notes we wrote down while in South Africa. One afternoon the group got together and wrote down every theme they could think of on yellow sticky notes. Then, the group stuck the notes all over a whiteboard and stepped back to look at them. Since many people had similar themes, the group began to group the sticky notes by theme and soon had bunches of notes on the whiteboard. Lastly, the group sat down and sorted through the groups and after much deliberation, narrowed it down to 5 main themes with a handful of subthemes to accompany each of them.
After this was completed, the researchers took these themes and divided them amonst themselves. We then used them to go through all of the transcriptions to pull out quotes that supported each theme. My themes included family, community, sex, aids, history, and music. All together, my document was over 23 pages of quotes!
Now, we've moved on to sorting through the photos that were taken during the trip. Collectively, we have over 15,000 photos! That's about 3,000 photos each for the research team to sort through! It's our job to add a title and description to each photo, as well as the author and the copyright. Then, we have to add as many "tags" to each photo as possible. This will allow others to easily search for tags or themes and have all relevant photos show up during their search. It's going to be an extremely tedious task, but one that's VITAL to this project.
So, why do all of this? Well, it's simple. Because we're working on a grant from the United Nations, we have to show that the money for the project and the trip was being used productively. Members from the United Nations ( or anyone else for that matter) can read through our interviews or search our photos and see that we're begun to analyze all the data we collected. Also, the artists and designers will need to use this information to support any artistic or style choice they choose while making the game. By being able to see quotes from the themes and easily searching tags on photos, they will be able to reference interviews and photos taken in South Africa to support their concepts.
It's been a tough few weeks, but we're all pushing through it and getting the work done. This stage is extremely important, as it determines the future of this project. All the work done on the trip and over the next few months will be presented to the United Nations and from there it will be decided if the college is granted the additional money to build the game over the next two or three years.
Now I think it's time to return to tagging photos!
Needless to say, although the trip to South Africa was hands down the most amazing experience I've ever had in my life, it wasn't a vacation. We worked tirelessly to gather as much information as we could in the short timespan of 10 days. Now many are wondering...what are you going to DO with the information?
Well, here's where the "fun" starts. We've spent the last few weeks transcribing all the audio that we collected from the various interviews that we conducted while we were there. For those that aren't familiar with transcribing, its the process of typing/writing out the entire interview, word for word. Literally--word for word. While this seems like a tedious but fairly do-able task, we've encountered a few obstacles that has made the process even more daunting.
First, we didn't have top of the line audio recording equipment. Many of us had simple voice recorders, and some even used the audio recording function on their digital cameras. We had to use what we had available in order to make sure every interview was recorded, no matter what the quality. Second, there was the issue of the heavy South African accents. And, in many of the recordings the interviews were competing with a great deal of background noise. Needless to say, this has been a tough process. But, the dilligent workers of the project have pushed through it and completed many, many, MANY hours of transcribing.
The next task was for the group to sit down and talk about common themes that we saw through the transcription process as well as when we digitized all of the notes we wrote down while in South Africa. One afternoon the group got together and wrote down every theme they could think of on yellow sticky notes. Then, the group stuck the notes all over a whiteboard and stepped back to look at them. Since many people had similar themes, the group began to group the sticky notes by theme and soon had bunches of notes on the whiteboard. Lastly, the group sat down and sorted through the groups and after much deliberation, narrowed it down to 5 main themes with a handful of subthemes to accompany each of them.
After this was completed, the researchers took these themes and divided them amonst themselves. We then used them to go through all of the transcriptions to pull out quotes that supported each theme. My themes included family, community, sex, aids, history, and music. All together, my document was over 23 pages of quotes!
Now, we've moved on to sorting through the photos that were taken during the trip. Collectively, we have over 15,000 photos! That's about 3,000 photos each for the research team to sort through! It's our job to add a title and description to each photo, as well as the author and the copyright. Then, we have to add as many "tags" to each photo as possible. This will allow others to easily search for tags or themes and have all relevant photos show up during their search. It's going to be an extremely tedious task, but one that's VITAL to this project.
So, why do all of this? Well, it's simple. Because we're working on a grant from the United Nations, we have to show that the money for the project and the trip was being used productively. Members from the United Nations ( or anyone else for that matter) can read through our interviews or search our photos and see that we're begun to analyze all the data we collected. Also, the artists and designers will need to use this information to support any artistic or style choice they choose while making the game. By being able to see quotes from the themes and easily searching tags on photos, they will be able to reference interviews and photos taken in South Africa to support their concepts.
It's been a tough few weeks, but we're all pushing through it and getting the work done. This stage is extremely important, as it determines the future of this project. All the work done on the trip and over the next few months will be presented to the United Nations and from there it will be decided if the college is granted the additional money to build the game over the next two or three years.
Now I think it's time to return to tagging photos!
Friday, August 22, 2008
Vital Information
Just for convenience, here is a list of blogs of students going on the trip. These students range from marketers, to artists, game programmers, and game designers. I've also listed the link to the official United Nations South Africa project blog that everyone, including the faculty on the trip, will be updating periodically. This blog is probably the best place for video and photo links ( if available--we don't know the internet situation yet.)
Community Project Blog:
Games Take on Violence Against Women-South Africa
Students:
Amanda Jones
Dan Bergeron
Wesley Knee
Rob Witbeck
Heather Conover
Brian George
Lauren Nishikawa
Jaimie Olmstead
Faculty:
Ann Demarle
Elaine Young(faculty advisor)
If you're on Facebook, you can also join and support our group here.
Thanks!
Community Project Blog:
Games Take on Violence Against Women-South Africa
Students:
Amanda Jones
Dan Bergeron
Wesley Knee
Rob Witbeck
Heather Conover
Brian George
Lauren Nishikawa
Jaimie Olmstead
Faculty:
Ann Demarle
Elaine Young(faculty advisor)
If you're on Facebook, you can also join and support our group here.
Thanks!
We've Only Just Begun
I can't believe it. I'm laying here in bed; my bags are packed, carry on is ready, my camera batteries are charged, memory cards emptied, passport and other documentation stored away in a purse--but I still can't believe it.
In a few hours, I'll wake up. I still won't believe it.
In a few hours, I'll get ready to go--finish some final packing, get dressed, make some coffee, grab a light breakfast. But I still won't believe it.
In a few hours, I'll get picked up, driven to the airport, and board a plane en route to JFK to go to South Africa. Chances are, I still won't believe it.
It's only been a few weeks, but I feel like I've already been on a journey. I've challenged authority and fought for what I believe in, in hopes to retain the RA position. When it didn't work, I moved apartments. I finished my internship, as well as my online internship class, and as of last night I finally completed my other online class. On top of all that, I've gotten my passport and vaccinations. I'm lucky I still know where my head is at right now!
But, I've also been on another journey--an intellectual, mental and emotional journey. I've researched every piece of South Africa I could imagine--I'm familiar with everything from the culture to the history to the economic and political status. I've researched their problems, their struggles, both past and present. As a group, we've all discussed these all to quite an extent. We've pondered over unanswered questions, and found answers to questions which only lead to more. We've bounced around ideas, comments, concerns, questions, worries, fears, anxieties, hopes, dreams, plans, and information. We've spent hours upon hours upon hours submerging ourselves in the world of the United Nations and violence against women.
And yet, something tells me we've only just begun. There's only so much that you can read on paper, or on the internet. There's only so many Youtube videos you can watch about the land and its people. It isn't until you physically, emotionally, and mentally experience the world in person that you can begin to truly understand it.
In a few hours, we begin that process. What does it hold? Nobody knows. We've speculated, but none of us truly knows--and rightfully so. Yet, this leaves me a bit worried. I can only prepare myself so much mentally and emotionally, but will this be enough? Will I be able to handle the sights that will be before my eyes? Will I be able to comprehend all that unfurls before me? I don't know. In fact, I probably still won't know until I am laying in my bed the first night home, my mind swirling with images and memories from the trip.
I think it will be then, and only then, that I'll finally believe it.
I don't know what to expect, I don't know what will happen. But, I know one thing--in a few hours, it will all begin, whether I like it or not. Time to just jump in and take the plunge.
So with that, I sign off to get a few hours of sleep before the sun rises, signaling the beginning of the day, and of my journey--We may be half way there, but we've only just begun.
In a few hours, I'll wake up. I still won't believe it.
In a few hours, I'll get ready to go--finish some final packing, get dressed, make some coffee, grab a light breakfast. But I still won't believe it.
In a few hours, I'll get picked up, driven to the airport, and board a plane en route to JFK to go to South Africa. Chances are, I still won't believe it.
It's only been a few weeks, but I feel like I've already been on a journey. I've challenged authority and fought for what I believe in, in hopes to retain the RA position. When it didn't work, I moved apartments. I finished my internship, as well as my online internship class, and as of last night I finally completed my other online class. On top of all that, I've gotten my passport and vaccinations. I'm lucky I still know where my head is at right now!
But, I've also been on another journey--an intellectual, mental and emotional journey. I've researched every piece of South Africa I could imagine--I'm familiar with everything from the culture to the history to the economic and political status. I've researched their problems, their struggles, both past and present. As a group, we've all discussed these all to quite an extent. We've pondered over unanswered questions, and found answers to questions which only lead to more. We've bounced around ideas, comments, concerns, questions, worries, fears, anxieties, hopes, dreams, plans, and information. We've spent hours upon hours upon hours submerging ourselves in the world of the United Nations and violence against women.
And yet, something tells me we've only just begun. There's only so much that you can read on paper, or on the internet. There's only so many Youtube videos you can watch about the land and its people. It isn't until you physically, emotionally, and mentally experience the world in person that you can begin to truly understand it.
In a few hours, we begin that process. What does it hold? Nobody knows. We've speculated, but none of us truly knows--and rightfully so. Yet, this leaves me a bit worried. I can only prepare myself so much mentally and emotionally, but will this be enough? Will I be able to handle the sights that will be before my eyes? Will I be able to comprehend all that unfurls before me? I don't know. In fact, I probably still won't know until I am laying in my bed the first night home, my mind swirling with images and memories from the trip.
I think it will be then, and only then, that I'll finally believe it.
I don't know what to expect, I don't know what will happen. But, I know one thing--in a few hours, it will all begin, whether I like it or not. Time to just jump in and take the plunge.
So with that, I sign off to get a few hours of sleep before the sun rises, signaling the beginning of the day, and of my journey--We may be half way there, but we've only just begun.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Project Update
It's been a few days since my last post, so I figured it was time for an update.
First, a quick update on the RA position/UN project:
Housing: We have to move apartments. I'm not even going to get into the argument. I don't agree with their reasoning (there seems to be a trend here) but its not even worth it at this point. We're hoping for 2 spaces to be available in Spinner, but if not Amanda and I will have to move into separate apartments. Meeting with housing again tomorrow morning to figure things out more. I just want everything over with so I can focus on my online classes, the project, and my life, basically. This whole ordeal has consumed it for the past two weeks or so. It's been a long battle, and I'm just done fighting it. If anything, it's just made me lose any desire to work for them in the future.
But, on to more positive? note: the UN Project
Research is coming along, slowly but surely. We've struggled the first few days, I believe in part because we didn't really have a direction. We were dropped into this without knowing what to do, and it took us a few days to "Get accustomed" to everything I guess. The only analogy I can come up with is in Castaway, where Tom Hanks first washes up on the island. He just sits there, unsure of what to do. He mentally takes in his surroundings, and simply sits there and thinks. Finally he gets some direction and begins to take steps to survive.
Today was especially good, we all felt extremely productive and felt like we made some strides towards making a plan for the next few weeks. It's been great working together as a team for most of the time, we really utilize each other- talk things through out loud, bounce ideas around, and find new things or topics to research through each other's research.
We've also spent a good amount of time discussing the marketing around this project. We know that we want to make others aware of it, as it's a big project for Champlain College. Not only should others in the college know about it, but the community as well. But, here lies the problem--how do we do that? How to we make others aware of it? Especially in the next few weeks, as we want others to be able to follow us while we're in Africa. So far, we've turned to one marketing method we know and trust-Facebook. We created a group in order for everyone to join- group members, friends, family, etc... Here, we'll use this as a way to update our research findings, marketing strategies, etc... to keep everyone updated. Also, we've listed some student blogs and encouraged others to do it as well. This way they are all in one convenient place and others can access various student blogs in one place. On the flip side, once we gather a great deal of students, it will be easy to reach them all if we need to by simply sending a message to all the members in the group. In addition, we're hoping the more people we reach out to, the more will come back with information links, contact names, etc... that they know of. Yay for social networking!
Another issue we've come across in our our discussions is a lack of a "brand" I guess you could call it? We want to give the project a name and a logo, something that will not only unite everyone working on the project (there seems to be some division lines between groups) but will also give something for others to connect to, not just the "EMC UN Project". As marketing majors, we all got excited about this topic and have developed a few ideas for names, t-shirt and logo ideas, as well as empowering quotes and slogans. Of course, this isn't all up to us, so we're excited to bring this to the group meeting and get feedback from the two design teams as well. But, some of the questions I've been wrestling with--is this something that the students and community will be excited about? Is this a cause they'll deem worthy of supporting? If not, is there a way we can change that? And, do they believe the project has as much magnitude as we do? I guess these are just questions we'll have to work on finding the answers to over the next few months.
Either way, we want to not only make a change to the communities in South Africa, but we think its equally as important to reach out to the community around us, even if only to educate them on the severity of this issue. We have to be careful though, and not focus too much on this issue just yet. I think sometimes its easier to work on marketing for this because it's familiar, its the world that we live in. But, with only a few short weeks before the trip, we need to really focus our attention on gathering the right research and preparing for the research we need to collect while over there. Not only is this research going to be vital towards the project, but we only have one shot (10 days) at everything. There is no room for error, really.
So, our goals for the next few weeks are going to be to really figure out the target market and narrow it down as much as possible. The more specific the target market, the better results we'll have, hopefully. We also need to create surveys, determine the areas that we want to visit to observe behavior and have focus groups, along with which we'll need good, quality interview questions. On top of that, we need to collect as much general research as we can to be able to develop a detailed profile of the target market before we go so that we can have something together for others to read on the plane.
We have a lot of work ahead of us and sometimes we feel a little in over our heads, but I'm confident we have a great team and great advisers such as Meg Frenzen and Elaine Young that are helping to steer us in the right directions.
Overall, with each day that goes by and the more information I learn, I feel more committed and passionate about this project. I only hope we'll be able to inspire others in the same way.
I leave you with a quote that I found earlier, and I thought it was relevant to the project and a great possible slogan for our group. It was said by Nelson Mandela, former president of South Africa, anti-apartheid activist and leader of the African National Congress:
"Education is the most powerful weapon you can use to change the world."
First, a quick update on the RA position/UN project:
Housing: We have to move apartments. I'm not even going to get into the argument. I don't agree with their reasoning (there seems to be a trend here) but its not even worth it at this point. We're hoping for 2 spaces to be available in Spinner, but if not Amanda and I will have to move into separate apartments. Meeting with housing again tomorrow morning to figure things out more. I just want everything over with so I can focus on my online classes, the project, and my life, basically. This whole ordeal has consumed it for the past two weeks or so. It's been a long battle, and I'm just done fighting it. If anything, it's just made me lose any desire to work for them in the future.
But, on to more positive? note: the UN Project
Research is coming along, slowly but surely. We've struggled the first few days, I believe in part because we didn't really have a direction. We were dropped into this without knowing what to do, and it took us a few days to "Get accustomed" to everything I guess. The only analogy I can come up with is in Castaway, where Tom Hanks first washes up on the island. He just sits there, unsure of what to do. He mentally takes in his surroundings, and simply sits there and thinks. Finally he gets some direction and begins to take steps to survive.
Today was especially good, we all felt extremely productive and felt like we made some strides towards making a plan for the next few weeks. It's been great working together as a team for most of the time, we really utilize each other- talk things through out loud, bounce ideas around, and find new things or topics to research through each other's research.
We've also spent a good amount of time discussing the marketing around this project. We know that we want to make others aware of it, as it's a big project for Champlain College. Not only should others in the college know about it, but the community as well. But, here lies the problem--how do we do that? How to we make others aware of it? Especially in the next few weeks, as we want others to be able to follow us while we're in Africa. So far, we've turned to one marketing method we know and trust-Facebook. We created a group in order for everyone to join- group members, friends, family, etc... Here, we'll use this as a way to update our research findings, marketing strategies, etc... to keep everyone updated. Also, we've listed some student blogs and encouraged others to do it as well. This way they are all in one convenient place and others can access various student blogs in one place. On the flip side, once we gather a great deal of students, it will be easy to reach them all if we need to by simply sending a message to all the members in the group. In addition, we're hoping the more people we reach out to, the more will come back with information links, contact names, etc... that they know of. Yay for social networking!
Another issue we've come across in our our discussions is a lack of a "brand" I guess you could call it? We want to give the project a name and a logo, something that will not only unite everyone working on the project (there seems to be some division lines between groups) but will also give something for others to connect to, not just the "EMC UN Project". As marketing majors, we all got excited about this topic and have developed a few ideas for names, t-shirt and logo ideas, as well as empowering quotes and slogans. Of course, this isn't all up to us, so we're excited to bring this to the group meeting and get feedback from the two design teams as well. But, some of the questions I've been wrestling with--is this something that the students and community will be excited about? Is this a cause they'll deem worthy of supporting? If not, is there a way we can change that? And, do they believe the project has as much magnitude as we do? I guess these are just questions we'll have to work on finding the answers to over the next few months.
Either way, we want to not only make a change to the communities in South Africa, but we think its equally as important to reach out to the community around us, even if only to educate them on the severity of this issue. We have to be careful though, and not focus too much on this issue just yet. I think sometimes its easier to work on marketing for this because it's familiar, its the world that we live in. But, with only a few short weeks before the trip, we need to really focus our attention on gathering the right research and preparing for the research we need to collect while over there. Not only is this research going to be vital towards the project, but we only have one shot (10 days) at everything. There is no room for error, really.
So, our goals for the next few weeks are going to be to really figure out the target market and narrow it down as much as possible. The more specific the target market, the better results we'll have, hopefully. We also need to create surveys, determine the areas that we want to visit to observe behavior and have focus groups, along with which we'll need good, quality interview questions. On top of that, we need to collect as much general research as we can to be able to develop a detailed profile of the target market before we go so that we can have something together for others to read on the plane.
We have a lot of work ahead of us and sometimes we feel a little in over our heads, but I'm confident we have a great team and great advisers such as Meg Frenzen and Elaine Young that are helping to steer us in the right directions.
Overall, with each day that goes by and the more information I learn, I feel more committed and passionate about this project. I only hope we'll be able to inspire others in the same way.
I leave you with a quote that I found earlier, and I thought it was relevant to the project and a great possible slogan for our group. It was said by Nelson Mandela, former president of South Africa, anti-apartheid activist and leader of the African National Congress:
"Education is the most powerful weapon you can use to change the world."
Monday, July 28, 2008
Tom Tom couldn't get me out of this crossroads...
So, the RA position/ UN project has come to a crossroads. For the last week, we've fought and fought with every person possible to retain our position as RAs and continue with the United Nations Project, but unfortunately had no success. We even talked to the president to see what he could do, as we knew he understood the importance of this project to Champlain college. But today, unfortunately, we heard word back--a decision has to be made.
For the past week, I've agonized over this. There were nights I laid in bed for hours, working out every possible situation in my head, trying to weigh the pros and cons, work out financials, and look at the situation both short term and long term. I think what's been most beneficial though, is not only all the support I've received from friends, advisors, co workers, and family, but also being able to talk things through with everyone. I can't thank those enough that helped me work through the situation and offered suggestions, pros, cons, factors I never considered, etc... Also, a big shout out to Wes for his suggestion in talking to the president and arranging the meeting with him for us because we were so strapped for time. Being able to have this support and help there has been instrumental in not only my mental sanity, but also in making this tough decision.
After getting all the advice that I could, I worked it out to be the following:
This United Nations project is a once in a lifetime deal. Not many college students can say that they worked on a project for the United Nations and received an all expense paid trip to Africa to conduct research there. I know this project is going to big, especially based on all the PR ideas we were throwing out in this morning's meeting. It's not only going to look good on a resume, but I can only imagine what a fullfilling experience this is going to be. Even in the little bit of time that we've worked on it, there's a perpetual warm feeling that fills me, because in my heart I know we're helping the greater good.
But, I also had to look at what I would have to sacrifice for this position. For a while it looked like I wouldn't even be able to be guaranteed housing, let alone live with my roommate, Amanda. Not knowing about housing scared me. Terrified me, actually. There's no way I'd be able to afford an apartment for the year. And, if I had to move back to campus, I'd also have to get the meal plan. That's an additional 12,000 I'd have to find money for. Every year my financial aid is tight, so being able to find that amount would have been tough. Luckily, Res Life has finally guaranteed us housing in Spinner, and they're fairly certain we can room together. That relieves me a little. On top of everything else, I'd give up the bi-weekly RA paycheck and worst of all, the position itself. I'd already started planning activities for the year,and residents I didn't even know (and ones I knew) were already contacting me with questions and concerns , looking to their RA for guidance. There were tons of people, RAs and residents, who were counting on me to be in this position. By turning down this position, I felt like I was letting them down. I think that weighed more heavily on me than anything else.
I guess, when it all came down to it, I had to determine if this project was worth losing that student trust, that money, and the financial break on housing.
And after a great, great, great deal of consideration and thinking, I believe it is. It truly is. It's worth it for the cause, for the experience, for the opportunity. Bottom line.
So, I'm doing the UN Project and turning down the RA position.
Yes, we may not change the world. But, I refer back to the quote that I heard from Schindler's List "He who saves a life saves a world entire." Even if we're only able to save one life, save one woman from violence, then we've saved an entire world. Is this behavioral change even possible with what we're doing? I honestly don't know. But all we can do is try. And that, that makes it all worth it.
Last week during one of my sleepless nights, I thought back to the last big decision in my life, and I tracked it back to seven years ago when my parents were getting divorced. I had the choice of living with my mother and brother, or moving out and living with my dad. I wanted to live with my dad because my mother and I did not ( and still don't) have anything that resembles a relationship. But, my brother and I have a very tight, special bond. It broke my heart to have to choose, but there was no way around it. He wasn't old enough to choose, and my mother wasn't giving him up. I agonized over this, cried and cried and cried and prayed and cried and prayed for an answer. I've never felt my heart break more than when I watched my brother from the side view mirror as my dad and I drove away. Even seven years later, it's still an image that haunts me. But as we drove along and I fought back tears, I wondered if I made the right decision. I knew it was going to be mentally, emotionally and physically better for me. And, even though I hated leaving my brother, I knew he was going to be okay, we were going to survive. Even then, there was still a small part of me that whispered "things will be okay."
And now, seven years later...they are. It not only strengthened our bond and our relationship, but a year later he moved in with us, and we've never looked back. Things were okay. I can't even imagine myself making any other choice when I look at it now.
This was similar. I looked at all the pros and cons, and deep in my heart I feel this is right for me. It hurts to leave this RA position because I knew not only would I be good at the job, but it'd also be fulfilling. But, I feel that this UN project will be the best. It tore me apart, but I have to listen to my heart, it's never steered me wrong. And I can hear that faint whisper again that "things will be okay." My friends and family support me, and in my heart, this feels right.
When I moved out, things were okay. And inside, I know this will be, too.
I'm comforted by a quote I found by Abraham Maslow, a psychologist who created Maslow's "hierarchy of needs."
He said, "You will either step forward into growth or step back into safety."
The RA job would be safe. I know what to expect, I know what to do. But would I grow from it? I don't know. Maybe a little. This project is a complete unknown. None of us know how we're going to tackle this, or what we're doing. That's why we're here and why we took it on-- it's a challenge. It excites me and fuels me inside when we discuss it, firing out ideas and dissecting problems and solutions. On top of that, I'll not only be really traveling abroad for the first time, but also to a place I know nothing about. The whole thing scares me, but equally excites me. But I'm taking a leap of faith. I'm stepping forward into growth.
One things for sure: this is going to be an incredible journey.
Thanks to all those that helped me, guided me and supported me. It's been a tough decision and an equally tough fight. I stood up for what I believed in until the very end, until I couldn't fight any more. I didn't take this all lying down, but I know when I ultimately need to concede. And I've thought this decision through very carefully. It's been a a long, stressful, and draining process, but I'm glad it's finally over. Now the only thing to do is look forward to the future. And, as Dr. Phill says " Sometimes you make the right decision, and sometimes you make a decision right."
Either way, this is going to be the right decision. So, goodbye Residential Life. Hello Africa!
For the past week, I've agonized over this. There were nights I laid in bed for hours, working out every possible situation in my head, trying to weigh the pros and cons, work out financials, and look at the situation both short term and long term. I think what's been most beneficial though, is not only all the support I've received from friends, advisors, co workers, and family, but also being able to talk things through with everyone. I can't thank those enough that helped me work through the situation and offered suggestions, pros, cons, factors I never considered, etc... Also, a big shout out to Wes for his suggestion in talking to the president and arranging the meeting with him for us because we were so strapped for time. Being able to have this support and help there has been instrumental in not only my mental sanity, but also in making this tough decision.
After getting all the advice that I could, I worked it out to be the following:
This United Nations project is a once in a lifetime deal. Not many college students can say that they worked on a project for the United Nations and received an all expense paid trip to Africa to conduct research there. I know this project is going to big, especially based on all the PR ideas we were throwing out in this morning's meeting. It's not only going to look good on a resume, but I can only imagine what a fullfilling experience this is going to be. Even in the little bit of time that we've worked on it, there's a perpetual warm feeling that fills me, because in my heart I know we're helping the greater good.
But, I also had to look at what I would have to sacrifice for this position. For a while it looked like I wouldn't even be able to be guaranteed housing, let alone live with my roommate, Amanda. Not knowing about housing scared me. Terrified me, actually. There's no way I'd be able to afford an apartment for the year. And, if I had to move back to campus, I'd also have to get the meal plan. That's an additional 12,000 I'd have to find money for. Every year my financial aid is tight, so being able to find that amount would have been tough. Luckily, Res Life has finally guaranteed us housing in Spinner, and they're fairly certain we can room together. That relieves me a little. On top of everything else, I'd give up the bi-weekly RA paycheck and worst of all, the position itself. I'd already started planning activities for the year,and residents I didn't even know (and ones I knew) were already contacting me with questions and concerns , looking to their RA for guidance. There were tons of people, RAs and residents, who were counting on me to be in this position. By turning down this position, I felt like I was letting them down. I think that weighed more heavily on me than anything else.
I guess, when it all came down to it, I had to determine if this project was worth losing that student trust, that money, and the financial break on housing.
And after a great, great, great deal of consideration and thinking, I believe it is. It truly is. It's worth it for the cause, for the experience, for the opportunity. Bottom line.
So, I'm doing the UN Project and turning down the RA position.
Yes, we may not change the world. But, I refer back to the quote that I heard from Schindler's List "He who saves a life saves a world entire." Even if we're only able to save one life, save one woman from violence, then we've saved an entire world. Is this behavioral change even possible with what we're doing? I honestly don't know. But all we can do is try. And that, that makes it all worth it.
Last week during one of my sleepless nights, I thought back to the last big decision in my life, and I tracked it back to seven years ago when my parents were getting divorced. I had the choice of living with my mother and brother, or moving out and living with my dad. I wanted to live with my dad because my mother and I did not ( and still don't) have anything that resembles a relationship. But, my brother and I have a very tight, special bond. It broke my heart to have to choose, but there was no way around it. He wasn't old enough to choose, and my mother wasn't giving him up. I agonized over this, cried and cried and cried and prayed and cried and prayed for an answer. I've never felt my heart break more than when I watched my brother from the side view mirror as my dad and I drove away. Even seven years later, it's still an image that haunts me. But as we drove along and I fought back tears, I wondered if I made the right decision. I knew it was going to be mentally, emotionally and physically better for me. And, even though I hated leaving my brother, I knew he was going to be okay, we were going to survive. Even then, there was still a small part of me that whispered "things will be okay."
And now, seven years later...they are. It not only strengthened our bond and our relationship, but a year later he moved in with us, and we've never looked back. Things were okay. I can't even imagine myself making any other choice when I look at it now.
This was similar. I looked at all the pros and cons, and deep in my heart I feel this is right for me. It hurts to leave this RA position because I knew not only would I be good at the job, but it'd also be fulfilling. But, I feel that this UN project will be the best. It tore me apart, but I have to listen to my heart, it's never steered me wrong. And I can hear that faint whisper again that "things will be okay." My friends and family support me, and in my heart, this feels right.
When I moved out, things were okay. And inside, I know this will be, too.
I'm comforted by a quote I found by Abraham Maslow, a psychologist who created Maslow's "hierarchy of needs."
He said, "You will either step forward into growth or step back into safety."
The RA job would be safe. I know what to expect, I know what to do. But would I grow from it? I don't know. Maybe a little. This project is a complete unknown. None of us know how we're going to tackle this, or what we're doing. That's why we're here and why we took it on-- it's a challenge. It excites me and fuels me inside when we discuss it, firing out ideas and dissecting problems and solutions. On top of that, I'll not only be really traveling abroad for the first time, but also to a place I know nothing about. The whole thing scares me, but equally excites me. But I'm taking a leap of faith. I'm stepping forward into growth.
One things for sure: this is going to be an incredible journey.
Thanks to all those that helped me, guided me and supported me. It's been a tough decision and an equally tough fight. I stood up for what I believed in until the very end, until I couldn't fight any more. I didn't take this all lying down, but I know when I ultimately need to concede. And I've thought this decision through very carefully. It's been a a long, stressful, and draining process, but I'm glad it's finally over. Now the only thing to do is look forward to the future. And, as Dr. Phill says " Sometimes you make the right decision, and sometimes you make a decision right."
Either way, this is going to be the right decision. So, goodbye Residential Life. Hello Africa!
Friday, July 25, 2008
Catch the Wave
I went to the first meeting for the United Nations Project today and it completely opened my eyes to all of this.
Blew me away.
It was incredible to read about the scope and potential of this project, and to listen to those in charge of it talk about it. It was obvious that each adviser was equally as passionate about this project, and each one brings a different but equally beneficial area of expertise.
What also struck me was the incredible student minds that surrounded me. As we went through introductions and continued into our first, in depth discussion about the project, I could see why each student was selected for this project. Everyone had a great background of experience and a passion for learning, and it was an incredible experience to listen to these students discuss and ask questions about the project. As marketers, my team and I asked questions about target markets and publicity, as well as research methods. Others asked questions about design and concepts, and the overall message that we want to bring to the consumer. There were things brought up that I would never have thought about or even knew about. But, each person around the table today did the same thing-listened. We listened to each other, absorbed information. We acknowledged really good questions and were open to ideas, and it seemed like each new point or question brought about 3 more. In those few hours that we met, you could feel the energy brewing in the room and the ideas beginning to take root in this project.
Overall, I think the one thing that brings us together is passion. We're passionate for what we do, and the work that we put fourth. And, we're passionate for this cause.
And, I think when you take extremely driven students who have an equal passion for the cause, you have a deadly force that is not afraid of obstacles and is ready to make waves through the community, through the nation, and across the globe.
Tonight, I heard a quote that made me think about this project in a new way:
"He who saves one life saves the world entire"
While we may not directly save lives through this project, we have the power to potentially influence future behavior. If that leads to even one less battered woman, one less innocent life saved, one less act of violence- we've saved the world. It was quite a humbling revelation.
I cannot wait to share with you the wealth of information I gain from this project, but also the large amount of personal growth.
In short, this is going to be big. Get ready for one heck of a journey... and grab your surfboard...Champlain College is making waves.
Blew me away.
It was incredible to read about the scope and potential of this project, and to listen to those in charge of it talk about it. It was obvious that each adviser was equally as passionate about this project, and each one brings a different but equally beneficial area of expertise.
What also struck me was the incredible student minds that surrounded me. As we went through introductions and continued into our first, in depth discussion about the project, I could see why each student was selected for this project. Everyone had a great background of experience and a passion for learning, and it was an incredible experience to listen to these students discuss and ask questions about the project. As marketers, my team and I asked questions about target markets and publicity, as well as research methods. Others asked questions about design and concepts, and the overall message that we want to bring to the consumer. There were things brought up that I would never have thought about or even knew about. But, each person around the table today did the same thing-listened. We listened to each other, absorbed information. We acknowledged really good questions and were open to ideas, and it seemed like each new point or question brought about 3 more. In those few hours that we met, you could feel the energy brewing in the room and the ideas beginning to take root in this project.
Overall, I think the one thing that brings us together is passion. We're passionate for what we do, and the work that we put fourth. And, we're passionate for this cause.
And, I think when you take extremely driven students who have an equal passion for the cause, you have a deadly force that is not afraid of obstacles and is ready to make waves through the community, through the nation, and across the globe.
Tonight, I heard a quote that made me think about this project in a new way:
"He who saves one life saves the world entire"
While we may not directly save lives through this project, we have the power to potentially influence future behavior. If that leads to even one less battered woman, one less innocent life saved, one less act of violence- we've saved the world. It was quite a humbling revelation.
I cannot wait to share with you the wealth of information I gain from this project, but also the large amount of personal growth.
In short, this is going to be big. Get ready for one heck of a journey... and grab your surfboard...Champlain College is making waves.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Rash Decisions arent me.
I've been molding and shaping this whole ordeal in my brain for the last few days. It's probably pretty apparent, as it's almost 3am and I have to get up for an all day meeting in like 4.5 hours.
But anyways...the anger and frustration have started to clear away ( but mind you, still there.) and I've now turned to logic, thinking, planning. I'm talking things through. I'm writing things down. I'm weighing out options, consequences, life for the semester, the year, and future years. I'm thinking about money. I'm thinking about living situations. I'm thinking about my future profession. I'm thinking about stress and time. I'm trying to incorporate every factor I can think of, draw lines, make connections, clear away the jumbled mess I had before and sort through all of this.
But most of all, I'm reaching out to others. I'm asking their opinion, looking for their advice, asking for their ideas. Sometimes it helps to hear things from other perspectives. You can see things in a new light, you can get new ideas, and sometimes even just hearing your own thoughts back to you can sway you one way or another.
Either way, this decision will be life changing. Part of this scares me. It scares me to know that either way, I'm missing out on something truly amazing. But, in some sick way, it excites me a little. Maybe my life needed this, maybe I need to be threatened with change. Who knows, it might do me some good. I don't really know.
Its funny because I've always been a firm believer in everything happens for a reason. There's been plenty of times I've looked back over my life and realized how certain actions or events brought me to where I was today, or how they changed my life at that moment, even when I couldn't see it then. Last year I was upset because Laura was no longer going to be our roommate after 2 years. I couldn't understand (well, I understood from her point, I guess) why this was happening to me. ( wow, that sounds selfish, but I really mean it in the most non selfish way possible). Anyways, I didn't realize it tonight that it happened for a reason. Not only for her own personal reasons, but also because if she was our roommate, this would make things even more difficult right now. Its different when both Amanda and I could face losing our apartment, because either way we'd both be leaving it. And, while there's a slim chance that we could be put together again, there's still a chance. For all 3 of us to leave and still be roommates, there's be absolutely no way. But, if we did have to move, we'd have to leave her behind in the apartment, which wouldn't be fair. And, it would probably make this decision more difficult because that would be a factor in our decision, when it really shouldn't be based on the severity of this decision. I hate to admit it, but it happened for a reason.
Needless to say, this whole thing has sickened me. literally. I've felt sick to my stomach for the past 3 days, and I've come really close to throwing up. It's just been that detrimental. And really, if you could see me now, I look like shit. No lie. I've been so drained from this, its affecting my job, my school work, my internship;its affecting me physically, mentally, emotionally.
I think I'll be able to feel relief once it's finally over, for better or for worse. And I'll probably need a giant hug.
probably two.
Now its time for bed, with a meeting about the UN project tomorrow. This will also play into the final decision as I learn more about the project and the trip.
I want to be 5 years old again.
But anyways...the anger and frustration have started to clear away ( but mind you, still there.) and I've now turned to logic, thinking, planning. I'm talking things through. I'm writing things down. I'm weighing out options, consequences, life for the semester, the year, and future years. I'm thinking about money. I'm thinking about living situations. I'm thinking about my future profession. I'm thinking about stress and time. I'm trying to incorporate every factor I can think of, draw lines, make connections, clear away the jumbled mess I had before and sort through all of this.
But most of all, I'm reaching out to others. I'm asking their opinion, looking for their advice, asking for their ideas. Sometimes it helps to hear things from other perspectives. You can see things in a new light, you can get new ideas, and sometimes even just hearing your own thoughts back to you can sway you one way or another.
Either way, this decision will be life changing. Part of this scares me. It scares me to know that either way, I'm missing out on something truly amazing. But, in some sick way, it excites me a little. Maybe my life needed this, maybe I need to be threatened with change. Who knows, it might do me some good. I don't really know.
Its funny because I've always been a firm believer in everything happens for a reason. There's been plenty of times I've looked back over my life and realized how certain actions or events brought me to where I was today, or how they changed my life at that moment, even when I couldn't see it then. Last year I was upset because Laura was no longer going to be our roommate after 2 years. I couldn't understand (well, I understood from her point, I guess) why this was happening to me. ( wow, that sounds selfish, but I really mean it in the most non selfish way possible). Anyways, I didn't realize it tonight that it happened for a reason. Not only for her own personal reasons, but also because if she was our roommate, this would make things even more difficult right now. Its different when both Amanda and I could face losing our apartment, because either way we'd both be leaving it. And, while there's a slim chance that we could be put together again, there's still a chance. For all 3 of us to leave and still be roommates, there's be absolutely no way. But, if we did have to move, we'd have to leave her behind in the apartment, which wouldn't be fair. And, it would probably make this decision more difficult because that would be a factor in our decision, when it really shouldn't be based on the severity of this decision. I hate to admit it, but it happened for a reason.
Needless to say, this whole thing has sickened me. literally. I've felt sick to my stomach for the past 3 days, and I've come really close to throwing up. It's just been that detrimental. And really, if you could see me now, I look like shit. No lie. I've been so drained from this, its affecting my job, my school work, my internship;its affecting me physically, mentally, emotionally.
I think I'll be able to feel relief once it's finally over, for better or for worse. And I'll probably need a giant hug.
probably two.
Now its time for bed, with a meeting about the UN project tomorrow. This will also play into the final decision as I learn more about the project and the trip.
I want to be 5 years old again.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
It depends on what your definition of "exception" means.
I'm speechless, really. Devestated. Frustrated. Exhausted. Stressed. Sick to my stomach from all of this.
Basically, what it comes down to is this:
If I take on this UN project and go on the trip to Africa, I cannot be an RA for next year. I have to somehow find the financial aid to cover the additional costs now, and there's a good chance I'd have to move out of my apartment, and to where, who knows.
I can't believe this. Really. After all of the extra work I've done for res life and for Spinner Place, none of it matters. Nothing.
And here's the part that I think makes it the worst. I understand their point that I'd be missing part of training as well as move in weekend. It's a valid point, and I understand the information and experience I'd be missing.
But here was the "gray area" that I found yesterday: They said that RAs in the fall needed to go through the entire training process in order to be qualified for the position and to be fully trained. BUT, RAs in the SPRING go through 2 days of training. 2 days. Then, they work with someone throughout the year. And those RAs are supposedly just as qualified and trained as the ones that need to go through 2 weeks of training in the fall. They also said that all RAs need to attend move in weekend. But, the RAs in the spring don't have to do that.
I guess I'm just not comprehending this. I don't understand how this can all equal out. They had argued and argued that they made no exception the 2 week training, no exception what so ever. Yet they said that the RA training in the spring is an exception. Which is it, do you make exceptions or don't you?
I put in a great amount of effort last year to create and run the Spinner Place Residence Hall because I wanted to make a difference in the hall, I wanted to give back and make a difference. We as volunteer students put on more events than the RAs within the building and had the most attendance overall at our events. And we did this all just to be involved.
At one point they asked "why should we make an exception for you when we could go out and hire someone that could be here on that weekend"
You know why? Because while you may find someone just as qualified, you won't find someone with just as much dedication to the position and to the building itself. I've lived there since it opened. I've worked on SPRHC, I've reached out to the students. I told them I was willing to do whatever it took to make up for the time, to prepare the rooms before I left, to take extra efforts to reach out to the residents to meet them, say hello, talk with them. ANYTHING. I've been working all summer to plan events, contact people, and even worked on plans for a Spinner Place activities website. And yet, apparently that's not enough.
We even proposed this- let us go to the first week of training. Let us work hard to do as much preparation as we possibly can before we go. If you feel we're undertrained, we won't be on duty that week and we asked that they work with us on that Saturday following (Jamie said he'd be willing). And then let us make up the duty days during the rest of the month. Yes, I know it's asking them to go out of their way on that one day. But, I feel it would be a good investment and worth it in the long run. I KNOW I'll be a good RA, and I know I'll not only do the job but do it WELL. There are some RAs that just do the bare minimum, just enough to get by and fullfill the position. I don't want to be one of those. I want to put in the extra effort to have quality, fun, engaging activities that students can meet and bond with each other at as well as have a beneficial learning experience. I understand the added difficulties Spinner has with resident participation and community because I've lived there. I've worked on breaking those barriers down. Many people who haven't had experience working there could be very easily frustrated by these and simply give up.
And they even said during the meeting that they didn't doubt we could have all the necessary information to do the job and to do it well, but we'd be "missing out on the experience." and that was irreplaceable. But, RAs in the spring don't get that "experience" either.
they kept repeating "if there was a way to make this work, we'd like nothing more than for this to work."
This is a way it could work.........
I'm so frustrated. I'm frustrated that I can be willing to go completely out of my way to make this all work, all because I want to be there for the residents, to do all I can to make sure they'll have a good experience at Champlain AND at Spinner. I'm so passionate about this job its not even funny. Isn't that what they ultimately look for in an RA? But they're not willing to meet me part way.
I want to give back to this college because its given so much to me, and I can think of no better way to do that than as an RA. I can give back to the students and be a representative for the college.
But at the same time, the college has presented me with this UN opportunity. In order to do this job, the trip is necessary to conduct thorough research. This is thinking about the client and their best interests, something the college would want to represent to the United Nations. But yet, they're not willing to make to budge on any of this.
I just don't know.
Don't even begin to ask me my decision right now. I'm not going to give up fighting until the very last minute. I don't feel this is fair, and I don't agree with their reasoning, especially in light of this RA fall/spring training.
What I do know, is that I'm completely sickened over this entire thing.
Basically, what it comes down to is this:
If I take on this UN project and go on the trip to Africa, I cannot be an RA for next year. I have to somehow find the financial aid to cover the additional costs now, and there's a good chance I'd have to move out of my apartment, and to where, who knows.
I can't believe this. Really. After all of the extra work I've done for res life and for Spinner Place, none of it matters. Nothing.
And here's the part that I think makes it the worst. I understand their point that I'd be missing part of training as well as move in weekend. It's a valid point, and I understand the information and experience I'd be missing.
But here was the "gray area" that I found yesterday: They said that RAs in the fall needed to go through the entire training process in order to be qualified for the position and to be fully trained. BUT, RAs in the SPRING go through 2 days of training. 2 days. Then, they work with someone throughout the year. And those RAs are supposedly just as qualified and trained as the ones that need to go through 2 weeks of training in the fall. They also said that all RAs need to attend move in weekend. But, the RAs in the spring don't have to do that.
I guess I'm just not comprehending this. I don't understand how this can all equal out. They had argued and argued that they made no exception the 2 week training, no exception what so ever. Yet they said that the RA training in the spring is an exception. Which is it, do you make exceptions or don't you?
I put in a great amount of effort last year to create and run the Spinner Place Residence Hall because I wanted to make a difference in the hall, I wanted to give back and make a difference. We as volunteer students put on more events than the RAs within the building and had the most attendance overall at our events. And we did this all just to be involved.
At one point they asked "why should we make an exception for you when we could go out and hire someone that could be here on that weekend"
You know why? Because while you may find someone just as qualified, you won't find someone with just as much dedication to the position and to the building itself. I've lived there since it opened. I've worked on SPRHC, I've reached out to the students. I told them I was willing to do whatever it took to make up for the time, to prepare the rooms before I left, to take extra efforts to reach out to the residents to meet them, say hello, talk with them. ANYTHING. I've been working all summer to plan events, contact people, and even worked on plans for a Spinner Place activities website. And yet, apparently that's not enough.
We even proposed this- let us go to the first week of training. Let us work hard to do as much preparation as we possibly can before we go. If you feel we're undertrained, we won't be on duty that week and we asked that they work with us on that Saturday following (Jamie said he'd be willing). And then let us make up the duty days during the rest of the month. Yes, I know it's asking them to go out of their way on that one day. But, I feel it would be a good investment and worth it in the long run. I KNOW I'll be a good RA, and I know I'll not only do the job but do it WELL. There are some RAs that just do the bare minimum, just enough to get by and fullfill the position. I don't want to be one of those. I want to put in the extra effort to have quality, fun, engaging activities that students can meet and bond with each other at as well as have a beneficial learning experience. I understand the added difficulties Spinner has with resident participation and community because I've lived there. I've worked on breaking those barriers down. Many people who haven't had experience working there could be very easily frustrated by these and simply give up.
And they even said during the meeting that they didn't doubt we could have all the necessary information to do the job and to do it well, but we'd be "missing out on the experience." and that was irreplaceable. But, RAs in the spring don't get that "experience" either.
they kept repeating "if there was a way to make this work, we'd like nothing more than for this to work."
This is a way it could work.........
I'm so frustrated. I'm frustrated that I can be willing to go completely out of my way to make this all work, all because I want to be there for the residents, to do all I can to make sure they'll have a good experience at Champlain AND at Spinner. I'm so passionate about this job its not even funny. Isn't that what they ultimately look for in an RA? But they're not willing to meet me part way.
I want to give back to this college because its given so much to me, and I can think of no better way to do that than as an RA. I can give back to the students and be a representative for the college.
But at the same time, the college has presented me with this UN opportunity. In order to do this job, the trip is necessary to conduct thorough research. This is thinking about the client and their best interests, something the college would want to represent to the United Nations. But yet, they're not willing to make to budge on any of this.
I just don't know.
Don't even begin to ask me my decision right now. I'm not going to give up fighting until the very last minute. I don't feel this is fair, and I don't agree with their reasoning, especially in light of this RA fall/spring training.
What I do know, is that I'm completely sickened over this entire thing.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Welcome to the case of Opportunity Knocks vs. Hard Knocks
Opportunity knocks vs. hard knocks.
I have to say, that was probably the most intense 90 minutes of my life.
There was discussion, there was arguing. There were smiles and laughs, there were full out tears. There were some intense heated moments between all of us, as well as some awkward silent times.
But......there is still light at the end of the tunnel. Mind you, it's like lighting a candle at the end of the Lincoln Tunnel, but nonetheless, it's there. Thank you vague loopholes.
I'm crossing my fingers and praying to every god I can think of. There were valid points that came up from both parties, and we pleaded our case, put fourth our points, and cried many, many, many tears. But no matter what, we fought. We fought hard. Not only to retain this position, but to show our dedication, prove that we want this more than we've wanted anything in our lives.
And now all we can do it way. and pray. and cry. and wait. and pray some more.
Please, let this all work out. Please please please please PLEASE.
More details later when I can emotionally ( and mentally) come down from all of this.
Oh yeah, and when I'm not at my internship.
Stay tuned.
I have to say, that was probably the most intense 90 minutes of my life.
There was discussion, there was arguing. There were smiles and laughs, there were full out tears. There were some intense heated moments between all of us, as well as some awkward silent times.
But......there is still light at the end of the tunnel. Mind you, it's like lighting a candle at the end of the Lincoln Tunnel, but nonetheless, it's there. Thank you vague loopholes.
I'm crossing my fingers and praying to every god I can think of. There were valid points that came up from both parties, and we pleaded our case, put fourth our points, and cried many, many, many tears. But no matter what, we fought. We fought hard. Not only to retain this position, but to show our dedication, prove that we want this more than we've wanted anything in our lives.
And now all we can do it way. and pray. and cry. and wait. and pray some more.
Please, let this all work out. Please please please please PLEASE.
More details later when I can emotionally ( and mentally) come down from all of this.
Oh yeah, and when I'm not at my internship.
Stay tuned.
Monday, July 21, 2008
I knew it was all too good to be true.
I am completely devastated. I can't believe this. After all of my hard work, dedication to this school, and demonstration of leadership abilities, I'm being forced to choose between an amazing opportunity and a position that I KNOW I will excel at, a position that I genuinely want and am committed to. Obviously, because if I wasn't I wouldn't be this upset and this willing to fight. I just think it's funny, Champlain boasts about their "boundless opportunities" and their constant push for student involvement, yet they stifle the people that truly want to be involved.
Straight outta the gates
I can already tell it's going the week's going to be hectic straight out of the gates, but it's well worth it!
Officially back in Burlington (well, been back for a little under 12 hours) after a couple days back home. Worked for my dad, got caught up on some homework, and had some family time. I left this afternoon and arrived back here in Burlington, took a quick nap, then headed off to work a closing shift at Blockbuster until about 12:15am. When I got back, headed to the store with Amanda and Melinda, then came back and got stuff ready for tomorrow.
I don't know if I'm allowed to share all the details yet, so I'll refrain until I hear more, but everything's happening so fast! I feel like an incredible opportunity has just fallen into my lap, and I couldn't be more excited. =D But theres a lot to do to get ready... starting tomorrow by heading to the post office to take care of passport stuff. I'm getting everything done there, already finished the application and have my birth certificate and drivers license ready. Having it expedited to be here as quick as possible, don't want to have to worry about it as things get closer.
Also have to arrange things with Res Life. I'll be missing some RA training, so I have to figure out if everything will work out and I can do both. If not, then I'm sacrificing being an RA! Not giving this up! But, I'm really hoping I can work everything out...I talked briefly with Jamie tonight, and he said if I'm only missing and few days and back for move in weekend then things might be able to work out. I'm going to wait till I have details then head into res life to sit down with him, Laura Scott, Ashley Mikell, and anyone else to see if I can work out an alternative plan with them. *crosses fingers*
other than that, just finishing up my internship hours this week, have about 16.5 left to do, which will be 5 tomorrow, 8 Tuesday (13) and then 3.5 another day, whichever one they want me to come in on. Then I'm totally done! Also going to work on finishing all the assignments left for the class, as well as working on this week's assignment for my other online class.
I'm a busy busy girl, but I know everything will be worth it. =D
Officially back in Burlington (well, been back for a little under 12 hours) after a couple days back home. Worked for my dad, got caught up on some homework, and had some family time. I left this afternoon and arrived back here in Burlington, took a quick nap, then headed off to work a closing shift at Blockbuster until about 12:15am. When I got back, headed to the store with Amanda and Melinda, then came back and got stuff ready for tomorrow.
I don't know if I'm allowed to share all the details yet, so I'll refrain until I hear more, but everything's happening so fast! I feel like an incredible opportunity has just fallen into my lap, and I couldn't be more excited. =D But theres a lot to do to get ready... starting tomorrow by heading to the post office to take care of passport stuff. I'm getting everything done there, already finished the application and have my birth certificate and drivers license ready. Having it expedited to be here as quick as possible, don't want to have to worry about it as things get closer.
Also have to arrange things with Res Life. I'll be missing some RA training, so I have to figure out if everything will work out and I can do both. If not, then I'm sacrificing being an RA! Not giving this up! But, I'm really hoping I can work everything out...I talked briefly with Jamie tonight, and he said if I'm only missing and few days and back for move in weekend then things might be able to work out. I'm going to wait till I have details then head into res life to sit down with him, Laura Scott, Ashley Mikell, and anyone else to see if I can work out an alternative plan with them. *crosses fingers*
other than that, just finishing up my internship hours this week, have about 16.5 left to do, which will be 5 tomorrow, 8 Tuesday (13) and then 3.5 another day, whichever one they want me to come in on. Then I'm totally done! Also going to work on finishing all the assignments left for the class, as well as working on this week's assignment for my other online class.
I'm a busy busy girl, but I know everything will be worth it. =D
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Insomniatic thoughts...
I don't know what it has been lately, whether its the weather, the erratic sleeping schedule, or the shift from Burlington to home for the next few days, but I've been an insomniac the past few days.
It's probably a mix of everything. I went from sleeping in to about eleven a few days, to being at my internship for 9am Monday and Tuesday. Then on Tuesday after my internship things were crazy with rushing around to do an interview for a class and then getting called in for a closing shift at Blockbuster. I got home around 12:30am and went to bed just after 2am. The next day I was up early to pack for home, get things organized for my classes, and going to an interview for the U.N. project. ( more on this in a sec)
By the time I was finished with everything, I was exhausted towards the afternoon and early evening. It was a good thing, though, as I was looking forward to a good nights sleep in my own bed at home that night.
I spent a better part of the night working on Critical Thinking homework, and decided to call it quits at about 1:30am. I felt tired. I looked exhausted. But for some reason, once I finally crawled into bed and crashed onto my pillow, I couldn't sleep. My body suddenly became restless and my mind was running 100 miles an hour. I got up a few times and walked around, played with the cat, and tried to talk some sense into my self, saying I should be sound asleep right now. It probably wasn't until a little after 4am when I dozed off, and unfortunately my alarm woke me up for 8:30am so I could go and work in my dad's office this morning.
This morning I was completely exhausted, tired, cranky, spacey, you name it. I worked in his office and then grabbed some lunch, and was looking forward to a hardcore afternoon nap. But really, if I had been so lucky I probably wouldn't be updating this right now.
I'm tired, I can feel it. I can't even hold my eyes open all the way. I know this will be disastrous if it doesn't stop, because I will either get so run down that I get sick, or I'll completely crash at about 6 or 7pm and be wide awake at 4am. I'm hoping I either a) fall asleep at this computer or b) can squeeze out atleast an hours worth of sleep fairly soon here to keep me running for the rest of the night, allowing me to go to bed at a decent hour AND wake up at a decent hour.
I think part of it has to do with the interview. Ever since I had it, I've been dissecting it and going over every detail in my head. ( I tend to do this quite often with things like interviews and presentations and certain people interactions for some reason...)
I told my dad this afternoon when he asked about it that "if it was anyone but the college, I probably wouldn't hire myself either after the interview." Because it's the college...and I'm a student there...and was recommended for the position by my adviser...I'm hoping that scored me a few points.
After breaking it down, I've determined there were a few factors involved. First, I was distracted both before and during the interview. I had so many things going on that morning and the days previous, that my mind wasn't completely focused on the interview and the job. That is my fault, and I should have taken more time beforehand to mentally prepare myself and get focused. But, the location they held the interview in was not the most "interview friendly", as the door was wide open to a high traffic area, and people kept passing by and entering and leaving the adjacent room. But, while I'd love to blame it all on that, I know I should have asked for the door to be closed and I shouldn't have let myself get distracted by the noise.
The other factor is that one of my weaknesses is talking about myself to strangers. It takes me a while to even open up about myself to my close friends. Just ask them. But, an interview is just that...selling yourself to the interviewer. As Howie told me when I saw him afterwards, "Honey, its the time for you to flaunt yourself and strut your stuff."
There were so many things I wanted to say, things I had thought about beforehand that apparently disappeared the minute I walked in the door. My fear and nervousness got the best of me, and I gave minimal answers, some of which I realize were pretty lame after thinking back on them. When they asked me what I could bring to the project, I said "I'm a dedicated person, I try to put 100% of myself into everything I do." Jesus Christ, how convincing is that? It's such a cop out answer...people hear that and say, "yeah....okay.That's what they all say." I made no mention of any marketing skills or previous experiences. Hell, I'm applying for a market research position and I've done hands on market research for some of my classes. WHY DID I NOT MENTION THIS? I give myself some credit, I did use the example of the Spinner Place Residence Hall Council, stating that I'm not one to sit back and just talk about problems, that I try to take action. I.e. SPRHC for res hall issues. I also told them that many times I naturally tend to step up and take a leadership position when in groups. I didn't completely bomb the question, but this was a great open ended question that provided a great opportunity to showcase myself....and I didn't.
They also asked me a question towards the end, something similar to "if you had all the technology available at your fingertips, how would you go about using it for this project". If you know me, you know I don't like making quick decisions...I'm usually the type that will take the information and stew on it for awhile, and then get back to you with my decision...even ifs an easy one to make...I just like to be able to think about things before acting. Unfortunately, I should have anticipated something like this and THOUGHT ABOUT IT BEFOREHAND. I knew about the project...I knew what they were looking for me to do...so whyyyyyyyy didn't I think about what I'd do with the project?
I'm an idiot.
I gave some dumb answer about how the internet is a useful tool and can provide you with a great deal of information and opens up communication, yada yada yada. The more I think about it, I don't think I even answered the question... I just rambled on, hoping I'd say something close. Along those lines, they asked me what I'd do while in Africa and how I'd make the most of my time there to gather information. Again, should have thought about this beforehand. I mentioned something about just learning everything there is to learn about the target market, their culture, their beliefs, etc... something about conducting focus groups....and something about having them play the games to see what their knowledge of the equipment is, where their skill level is at, and if there's any glitches in the game how that would be a good opportunity to catch them. Too bad I think she said the E-gamers were just developing concepts...I don't know if that means they're even going to HAVE something to test out at that point...I mean, they'd have to come up with an actual prototype in a month, a little less, as we'd be going to Africa the end of August.
Oh man. It will be a miracle if I pull this off.
I guess its good that I'm getting all this interview experience now, with this one plus all the ones I did for my internship. With every one I tend to review it over and over and over, thinking back to the questions, my answers, what I should have said, what I shouldn't have said, and how they reacted. But at the same time, I could have just blown an extremely good opportunity, one that would look good on a resume, give me a bunch of hands on experience, AND pay well. $11/hour, yo.
I think Amanda said it best when she said, " I wish interviews were set up differently...I wish they let you do a two minute or so elevator pitch about yourself and THEN started the interview, to give you time to say what you wanted to say about yourself." That way you could think about it beforehand and get in the key points you wanted to before you had to answer any questions.
So, what would I have said? I would have talked about how I've done first hand market research through my Consumer Behavior and Research class through the project we did for a start up web company. I would have talked about my people skills, and how I am confident talking to strangers and probing for information (aka PHONEATHON for 2 years.) I would have displayed that I had knowledge of marketing by freaking mentioning it during the "what would you do" scenario, talking about conducting primary research and using that, along with secondary research, in order to compile a detailed consumer profile and marketing strategy. I should have come up with some marketing ideas for the project, especially viral, and talked about how to spread it via the web, word of mouth, social networking (a facebook and myspace application). What about connecting with other companies to have them promote the game? MTV does this with a game about the genocide in Darfur. What about a cell phone game? Hell, put it on a CD ROM and slip it in a cereal box, I don't know. I should have come up with ANYTHING to show that I was capable of thinking of thinking of these ideas. I should have also mentioned more about gaining a first hand perspective of the culture and the people while in Africa. Learn about their past, why they act the way they do. Learn the games they play now, how they interact with each other, their physical movements, their thought processes. Learn about their daily life and lifestyles,find out about any influences on them, and just talk to them in general to get a better understanding of who they are, what they stand for, and how the see the future. I did mention that the better they understand their consumers, the better they can market products to them....but I should have elaborated on that.
*sigh*. Well, there's not much I can do about it but wait until Friday or Monday when I should hear back. Then I'll either be jumping for joy or bawling, one or the other.
This will definitely be a learning experience, either way.
It's probably a mix of everything. I went from sleeping in to about eleven a few days, to being at my internship for 9am Monday and Tuesday. Then on Tuesday after my internship things were crazy with rushing around to do an interview for a class and then getting called in for a closing shift at Blockbuster. I got home around 12:30am and went to bed just after 2am. The next day I was up early to pack for home, get things organized for my classes, and going to an interview for the U.N. project. ( more on this in a sec)
By the time I was finished with everything, I was exhausted towards the afternoon and early evening. It was a good thing, though, as I was looking forward to a good nights sleep in my own bed at home that night.
I spent a better part of the night working on Critical Thinking homework, and decided to call it quits at about 1:30am. I felt tired. I looked exhausted. But for some reason, once I finally crawled into bed and crashed onto my pillow, I couldn't sleep. My body suddenly became restless and my mind was running 100 miles an hour. I got up a few times and walked around, played with the cat, and tried to talk some sense into my self, saying I should be sound asleep right now. It probably wasn't until a little after 4am when I dozed off, and unfortunately my alarm woke me up for 8:30am so I could go and work in my dad's office this morning.
This morning I was completely exhausted, tired, cranky, spacey, you name it. I worked in his office and then grabbed some lunch, and was looking forward to a hardcore afternoon nap. But really, if I had been so lucky I probably wouldn't be updating this right now.
I'm tired, I can feel it. I can't even hold my eyes open all the way. I know this will be disastrous if it doesn't stop, because I will either get so run down that I get sick, or I'll completely crash at about 6 or 7pm and be wide awake at 4am. I'm hoping I either a) fall asleep at this computer or b) can squeeze out atleast an hours worth of sleep fairly soon here to keep me running for the rest of the night, allowing me to go to bed at a decent hour AND wake up at a decent hour.
I think part of it has to do with the interview. Ever since I had it, I've been dissecting it and going over every detail in my head. ( I tend to do this quite often with things like interviews and presentations and certain people interactions for some reason...)
I told my dad this afternoon when he asked about it that "if it was anyone but the college, I probably wouldn't hire myself either after the interview." Because it's the college...and I'm a student there...and was recommended for the position by my adviser...I'm hoping that scored me a few points.
After breaking it down, I've determined there were a few factors involved. First, I was distracted both before and during the interview. I had so many things going on that morning and the days previous, that my mind wasn't completely focused on the interview and the job. That is my fault, and I should have taken more time beforehand to mentally prepare myself and get focused. But, the location they held the interview in was not the most "interview friendly", as the door was wide open to a high traffic area, and people kept passing by and entering and leaving the adjacent room. But, while I'd love to blame it all on that, I know I should have asked for the door to be closed and I shouldn't have let myself get distracted by the noise.
The other factor is that one of my weaknesses is talking about myself to strangers. It takes me a while to even open up about myself to my close friends. Just ask them. But, an interview is just that...selling yourself to the interviewer. As Howie told me when I saw him afterwards, "Honey, its the time for you to flaunt yourself and strut your stuff."
There were so many things I wanted to say, things I had thought about beforehand that apparently disappeared the minute I walked in the door. My fear and nervousness got the best of me, and I gave minimal answers, some of which I realize were pretty lame after thinking back on them. When they asked me what I could bring to the project, I said "I'm a dedicated person, I try to put 100% of myself into everything I do." Jesus Christ, how convincing is that? It's such a cop out answer...people hear that and say, "yeah....okay.That's what they all say." I made no mention of any marketing skills or previous experiences. Hell, I'm applying for a market research position and I've done hands on market research for some of my classes. WHY DID I NOT MENTION THIS? I give myself some credit, I did use the example of the Spinner Place Residence Hall Council, stating that I'm not one to sit back and just talk about problems, that I try to take action. I.e. SPRHC for res hall issues. I also told them that many times I naturally tend to step up and take a leadership position when in groups. I didn't completely bomb the question, but this was a great open ended question that provided a great opportunity to showcase myself....and I didn't.
They also asked me a question towards the end, something similar to "if you had all the technology available at your fingertips, how would you go about using it for this project". If you know me, you know I don't like making quick decisions...I'm usually the type that will take the information and stew on it for awhile, and then get back to you with my decision...even ifs an easy one to make...I just like to be able to think about things before acting. Unfortunately, I should have anticipated something like this and THOUGHT ABOUT IT BEFOREHAND. I knew about the project...I knew what they were looking for me to do...so whyyyyyyyy didn't I think about what I'd do with the project?
I'm an idiot.
I gave some dumb answer about how the internet is a useful tool and can provide you with a great deal of information and opens up communication, yada yada yada. The more I think about it, I don't think I even answered the question... I just rambled on, hoping I'd say something close. Along those lines, they asked me what I'd do while in Africa and how I'd make the most of my time there to gather information. Again, should have thought about this beforehand. I mentioned something about just learning everything there is to learn about the target market, their culture, their beliefs, etc... something about conducting focus groups....and something about having them play the games to see what their knowledge of the equipment is, where their skill level is at, and if there's any glitches in the game how that would be a good opportunity to catch them. Too bad I think she said the E-gamers were just developing concepts...I don't know if that means they're even going to HAVE something to test out at that point...I mean, they'd have to come up with an actual prototype in a month, a little less, as we'd be going to Africa the end of August.
Oh man. It will be a miracle if I pull this off.
I guess its good that I'm getting all this interview experience now, with this one plus all the ones I did for my internship. With every one I tend to review it over and over and over, thinking back to the questions, my answers, what I should have said, what I shouldn't have said, and how they reacted. But at the same time, I could have just blown an extremely good opportunity, one that would look good on a resume, give me a bunch of hands on experience, AND pay well. $11/hour, yo.
I think Amanda said it best when she said, " I wish interviews were set up differently...I wish they let you do a two minute or so elevator pitch about yourself and THEN started the interview, to give you time to say what you wanted to say about yourself." That way you could think about it beforehand and get in the key points you wanted to before you had to answer any questions.
So, what would I have said? I would have talked about how I've done first hand market research through my Consumer Behavior and Research class through the project we did for a start up web company. I would have talked about my people skills, and how I am confident talking to strangers and probing for information (aka PHONEATHON for 2 years.) I would have displayed that I had knowledge of marketing by freaking mentioning it during the "what would you do" scenario, talking about conducting primary research and using that, along with secondary research, in order to compile a detailed consumer profile and marketing strategy. I should have come up with some marketing ideas for the project, especially viral, and talked about how to spread it via the web, word of mouth, social networking (a facebook and myspace application). What about connecting with other companies to have them promote the game? MTV does this with a game about the genocide in Darfur. What about a cell phone game? Hell, put it on a CD ROM and slip it in a cereal box, I don't know. I should have come up with ANYTHING to show that I was capable of thinking of thinking of these ideas. I should have also mentioned more about gaining a first hand perspective of the culture and the people while in Africa. Learn about their past, why they act the way they do. Learn the games they play now, how they interact with each other, their physical movements, their thought processes. Learn about their daily life and lifestyles,find out about any influences on them, and just talk to them in general to get a better understanding of who they are, what they stand for, and how the see the future. I did mention that the better they understand their consumers, the better they can market products to them....but I should have elaborated on that.
*sigh*. Well, there's not much I can do about it but wait until Friday or Monday when I should hear back. Then I'll either be jumping for joy or bawling, one or the other.
This will definitely be a learning experience, either way.
Friday, May 2, 2008
Make Room In the Bandwagon...
Make room in the bandwagon, I finally gave in and created a blog. I didn't do it though, just to ride the blog craze. I've actually been thinking about it for quite some time. I've been LJ'ing for quite some time, but I tend to use that for more personal thoughts, feelings, and writing. It's not an address I like to give out to the casual blog reader, I keep it more for me and my close circle of friends already on LJ. But, I enjoy going back and reading previous entries from years ago to see what I was doing, how I thought back then.
I thought this blog would be a good way to:
a) help me remember what I did over the next year or so. Not only because I have a horrible time remembering things (ask my friends, they'll attest to this.) but also because this year marks a handful of firsts for me. This year for the first time:
1) I'll have 2 roommates I don't know. ( first time since freshan year.)
2) be an RA.
3) live away from home for the summer in Burlington.
4) marketing internship this summer.
And, next year at this time, I'll hopefully be able to look back and read about all the things I've done and actually remember some things. God, I hate this flaw, seriously.
Also, I realized lately that I don't write anymore- at all. There are a few scattered poems, stories, and reflections in my LJ, but not nearly as much as I used to have in high school. Hopefully, forcing myself to write in this blog regularly will stir up the creative juices within me and I'll rile up some inspiration.
I also hope it will indirectly help people get to know me better. It's pretty hard for me to divulge my true personality to people other than my close friends, and I don't really talk about myself unless you ask me. And, if I feel like you're not really interested, I'll close right back up. It's just how I am. But, a journal allows me to open myself up slightly without having to worry about the reader's attention span. If you're interested, you'll read it. If not, you won't. There's no hurt inflicted on me.
Lastly, it allows me to collect my thoughts and put them down in an organized manner. My continuous goal in life is to truly discover who I am, and what I'm about. Placing my thoughts down on electronic "paper" and reading them later with a fresh eye allows me to get a better understanding of myself. Sometimes I see things in a new light or from a different perspective. I'm able to analyze situations and the actions I took. I've discovered new things about myself; new likes, dislikes, personality quirks, pet peeves, aspirations, challenges, successes, failures, and just overall qualities that make up Me.
So, with all of that said, here's the maiden voyage on the ship of perpetual reflection...all aboard...
It's May 1st. Well, since its 2:30am, May 2nd. But for all intents and purposes ( and since I haven't gone to bed yet) it's the very first day of May. What better day to start a blog?May signifies the starting gates for summer, rejuvenation of life, and the end of April showers and beginning of May flowers. Well, hopefully.
It also marks a week since I've been officially finished with school for the summer. It was a haul; the last week I think I spent every night in the lab either editing video or swimming in InDesign for a magazine re-design. But, it was worth every hour of work when the final products were finished. And, now that I'm finished, I'm in what I call the "floating stage."
For someone who's had a constant job since she was 12 years old, it feels weird not to have a job right now. I never realized how much I worked until I spent the last week sitting here without a job. But, despite my work history, the job application process is a new thing to me, sad to say. I've always gotten my jobs through word of mouth, or through a family/friend connection. Except for working at the daycare, I've known all my bosses before they actually became my boss, too. My first job as a camp counselor in 6th grade was for the middle school I was attending; in a school of 200 kids, every teacher and faculty knows you pretty well. For 2.5 years after that I worked for the local full service gas station that my family had been going to for years. The boss remembered me from when I was just knee high to a grasshopper. Then, after that I found out about the daycare position through a friend who had been working there, who's aunt was also the assistant director there. Easy peasy. I got a temp job as an elf at the mall (yeah, I was an elf. =D ) through the parents of one of the children at the daycare. The mother worked at a photography studio in the area, so I had a few small things through her as well. Then, I worked off and on for my dad at his insurance agency as well as a painter for one of his clients (and a good hunting buddy of the family). And, one of my dad's old flames asked me if I wanted my most recent job last summer. She was also, coincidently, the boss. Sounds like a potential awkward situation, but really, everything was fine.
The only job I did have to apply to was for my school position as Phoneathon ambassador. But, I don't really consider this a "real" application process, really. Wow, and now that you pretty much know my entire employment history, let's move on...
So, needless to say, this is my first time "blindly" applying to corporate and retail job positions. It's also put me in the same boat for internships. Submitting cover letters and resumes, not knowing the people I'm contacting for job positions, playing the waiting game to hear back from employers- all new to me, unfortunately. I've applied to Blockbuster in 3 locations, as well as e-mailed about the availability of a few on campus jobs and one Final Cut Pro job. Not sure if I have enough experience for what they were looking for, though. I've submitted applications to two internship places and interviewed from one, but still waiting to hear back from both businesses.
The sticky part of the situation is that one internship, if I was hired, would be a full time, paid internship. Therefore, eliminating the need for a job. But, I can't put all my eggs in one basket, so I'm applying to other, non-paying internships. This means I'd need a job, as well-one that was flexible with my internship hours. And to top it all off, as the start date for the internship class approaches, I've learned one thing- you need to start this damned process much earlier than this.
*facedesk*. Live and learn, I guess. I'll just keep applying to jobs and internships...one of them has got to get back to me eventually, right? I hope so.
When not submitting applications, resumes, and cover letters, I've been working on some housekeeping issues, tying up loose ends here and there for the school year, and getting my financial aid in place. I also registered for the internship class, and discovered that I was eligible for financial aid if I enrolled in one more. So, this summer will consist of Interning AND Critical Thinking. whoo. After last summer's experience with online classes, I refused to take a history. If you are not a fan of history (like me) you definitely won't be a fan of taking it online.
Staying here for the summer also means that Amanda and I need to move into our apartment for next fall on Saturday. We've been working hard on packing up all of our junk, which is a considerable amount- after you've lived in Spinner in for two years, you collect quite a bit. Plus, when you move stuff and pack it up, you fully realize how much you NEED to clean. I'm sure much more of this will happen tomorrow and Saturday when we can move some of our stuff over to the new apartment, but we've gotten a head start on it.
I'm considering this a fresh start. Condensing all of my stuff into boxes and storage bins gives me a fresh new canvas to work with. And, after living here for 2 years, this year will be the first time I've had a different room. Even though I've lived in 2 separate apartments, I've always had the same letter room, meaning the exact same layout. And, the way it's designed, the re-arranging possibilities are very slim to none. I'm excited to be able to actually MOVE the furniture around this year.
I'm hoping the summer will give me enough time to truly refine my organizational skills. I worked on it this year, although its admittedly still pretty poor. My Myers-Briggs test was right- I enjoy being organized, even though I rarely am. It's why I've always enjoyed the first two weeks of school- my organizational systems are still in place. After that, you're lucky if you can find my desk amongst the clutter. But, this year I feel its especially important, not only because of the RA position but also for my mental sanity. I'll be juggling my school work, the RA position, maybe a second job on campus, as well as extra curricular activities such as the improv troupe and Champlain theater. If I'm not organized, I don't know where I'm supposed to be from day to day. Look at my calendar, you'll understand. Really. But, I'm already coming up with fun things that will keep me organized next year-ideally. I want to invest in some dry erase or chalkboard paint (yeah, they actually have these!) to create my assignment squares and a memo board for myself. As I said before, I have a horrible memory problem. If I don't write it down, chances are I'll forget it in the next few hours. This will help me keep my assignments on track, as well as long term assignments and upcoming events/activities/rehearsals and whatnot. I want to get more plastic drawers for under the bed and under the desk storage for my increasing art supplies collection. This will get it out of my way AND keep it organized. I also want to get a bulletin board for all of the nic nacs and other personal items I collect over the year. In the past, I've just tacked or taped them to the wall, and towards the end of the year it just becomes a scattered eclectic mess. My theory is, if the entire space around me is organized, then it will encourage me to be too. This means a unified AND organized design scheme, as well. We'll see how it all goes though. Like I said- come looking for my desk after the first two weeks of school to test out the system.
Wow, it's 3:30am. This has been a long post. They probably all won't be this long. A) I won't have as much to say and B) I won't have the time to write all this. But, I want to work hard to maintain this. I'll be thankful later, I know it. So, I'll close today with a quote from C.S. Lewis:
"Failures are finger posts on the road to achievement."
I'll take this as every rejected or ignored job/internship application means that the big'un is just waiting around the corner.....I hope! Eeks, wish me luck.
P.s. the domain name will probably change as soon as I think of something better. Stay tuned.
I thought this blog would be a good way to:
a) help me remember what I did over the next year or so. Not only because I have a horrible time remembering things (ask my friends, they'll attest to this.) but also because this year marks a handful of firsts for me. This year for the first time:
1) I'll have 2 roommates I don't know. ( first time since freshan year.)
2) be an RA.
3) live away from home for the summer in Burlington.
4) marketing internship this summer.
And, next year at this time, I'll hopefully be able to look back and read about all the things I've done and actually remember some things. God, I hate this flaw, seriously.
Also, I realized lately that I don't write anymore- at all. There are a few scattered poems, stories, and reflections in my LJ, but not nearly as much as I used to have in high school. Hopefully, forcing myself to write in this blog regularly will stir up the creative juices within me and I'll rile up some inspiration.
I also hope it will indirectly help people get to know me better. It's pretty hard for me to divulge my true personality to people other than my close friends, and I don't really talk about myself unless you ask me. And, if I feel like you're not really interested, I'll close right back up. It's just how I am. But, a journal allows me to open myself up slightly without having to worry about the reader's attention span. If you're interested, you'll read it. If not, you won't. There's no hurt inflicted on me.
Lastly, it allows me to collect my thoughts and put them down in an organized manner. My continuous goal in life is to truly discover who I am, and what I'm about. Placing my thoughts down on electronic "paper" and reading them later with a fresh eye allows me to get a better understanding of myself. Sometimes I see things in a new light or from a different perspective. I'm able to analyze situations and the actions I took. I've discovered new things about myself; new likes, dislikes, personality quirks, pet peeves, aspirations, challenges, successes, failures, and just overall qualities that make up Me.
So, with all of that said, here's the maiden voyage on the ship of perpetual reflection...all aboard...
It's May 1st. Well, since its 2:30am, May 2nd. But for all intents and purposes ( and since I haven't gone to bed yet) it's the very first day of May. What better day to start a blog?May signifies the starting gates for summer, rejuvenation of life, and the end of April showers and beginning of May flowers. Well, hopefully.
It also marks a week since I've been officially finished with school for the summer. It was a haul; the last week I think I spent every night in the lab either editing video or swimming in InDesign for a magazine re-design. But, it was worth every hour of work when the final products were finished. And, now that I'm finished, I'm in what I call the "floating stage."
For someone who's had a constant job since she was 12 years old, it feels weird not to have a job right now. I never realized how much I worked until I spent the last week sitting here without a job. But, despite my work history, the job application process is a new thing to me, sad to say. I've always gotten my jobs through word of mouth, or through a family/friend connection. Except for working at the daycare, I've known all my bosses before they actually became my boss, too. My first job as a camp counselor in 6th grade was for the middle school I was attending; in a school of 200 kids, every teacher and faculty knows you pretty well. For 2.5 years after that I worked for the local full service gas station that my family had been going to for years. The boss remembered me from when I was just knee high to a grasshopper. Then, after that I found out about the daycare position through a friend who had been working there, who's aunt was also the assistant director there. Easy peasy. I got a temp job as an elf at the mall (yeah, I was an elf. =D ) through the parents of one of the children at the daycare. The mother worked at a photography studio in the area, so I had a few small things through her as well. Then, I worked off and on for my dad at his insurance agency as well as a painter for one of his clients (and a good hunting buddy of the family). And, one of my dad's old flames asked me if I wanted my most recent job last summer. She was also, coincidently, the boss. Sounds like a potential awkward situation, but really, everything was fine.
The only job I did have to apply to was for my school position as Phoneathon ambassador. But, I don't really consider this a "real" application process, really. Wow, and now that you pretty much know my entire employment history, let's move on...
So, needless to say, this is my first time "blindly" applying to corporate and retail job positions. It's also put me in the same boat for internships. Submitting cover letters and resumes, not knowing the people I'm contacting for job positions, playing the waiting game to hear back from employers- all new to me, unfortunately. I've applied to Blockbuster in 3 locations, as well as e-mailed about the availability of a few on campus jobs and one Final Cut Pro job. Not sure if I have enough experience for what they were looking for, though. I've submitted applications to two internship places and interviewed from one, but still waiting to hear back from both businesses.
The sticky part of the situation is that one internship, if I was hired, would be a full time, paid internship. Therefore, eliminating the need for a job. But, I can't put all my eggs in one basket, so I'm applying to other, non-paying internships. This means I'd need a job, as well-one that was flexible with my internship hours. And to top it all off, as the start date for the internship class approaches, I've learned one thing- you need to start this damned process much earlier than this.
*facedesk*. Live and learn, I guess. I'll just keep applying to jobs and internships...one of them has got to get back to me eventually, right? I hope so.
When not submitting applications, resumes, and cover letters, I've been working on some housekeeping issues, tying up loose ends here and there for the school year, and getting my financial aid in place. I also registered for the internship class, and discovered that I was eligible for financial aid if I enrolled in one more. So, this summer will consist of Interning AND Critical Thinking. whoo. After last summer's experience with online classes, I refused to take a history. If you are not a fan of history (like me) you definitely won't be a fan of taking it online.
Staying here for the summer also means that Amanda and I need to move into our apartment for next fall on Saturday. We've been working hard on packing up all of our junk, which is a considerable amount- after you've lived in Spinner in for two years, you collect quite a bit. Plus, when you move stuff and pack it up, you fully realize how much you NEED to clean. I'm sure much more of this will happen tomorrow and Saturday when we can move some of our stuff over to the new apartment, but we've gotten a head start on it.
I'm considering this a fresh start. Condensing all of my stuff into boxes and storage bins gives me a fresh new canvas to work with. And, after living here for 2 years, this year will be the first time I've had a different room. Even though I've lived in 2 separate apartments, I've always had the same letter room, meaning the exact same layout. And, the way it's designed, the re-arranging possibilities are very slim to none. I'm excited to be able to actually MOVE the furniture around this year.
I'm hoping the summer will give me enough time to truly refine my organizational skills. I worked on it this year, although its admittedly still pretty poor. My Myers-Briggs test was right- I enjoy being organized, even though I rarely am. It's why I've always enjoyed the first two weeks of school- my organizational systems are still in place. After that, you're lucky if you can find my desk amongst the clutter. But, this year I feel its especially important, not only because of the RA position but also for my mental sanity. I'll be juggling my school work, the RA position, maybe a second job on campus, as well as extra curricular activities such as the improv troupe and Champlain theater. If I'm not organized, I don't know where I'm supposed to be from day to day. Look at my calendar, you'll understand. Really. But, I'm already coming up with fun things that will keep me organized next year-ideally. I want to invest in some dry erase or chalkboard paint (yeah, they actually have these!) to create my assignment squares and a memo board for myself. As I said before, I have a horrible memory problem. If I don't write it down, chances are I'll forget it in the next few hours. This will help me keep my assignments on track, as well as long term assignments and upcoming events/activities/rehearsals and whatnot. I want to get more plastic drawers for under the bed and under the desk storage for my increasing art supplies collection. This will get it out of my way AND keep it organized. I also want to get a bulletin board for all of the nic nacs and other personal items I collect over the year. In the past, I've just tacked or taped them to the wall, and towards the end of the year it just becomes a scattered eclectic mess. My theory is, if the entire space around me is organized, then it will encourage me to be too. This means a unified AND organized design scheme, as well. We'll see how it all goes though. Like I said- come looking for my desk after the first two weeks of school to test out the system.
Wow, it's 3:30am. This has been a long post. They probably all won't be this long. A) I won't have as much to say and B) I won't have the time to write all this. But, I want to work hard to maintain this. I'll be thankful later, I know it. So, I'll close today with a quote from C.S. Lewis:
"Failures are finger posts on the road to achievement."
I'll take this as every rejected or ignored job/internship application means that the big'un is just waiting around the corner.....I hope! Eeks, wish me luck.
P.s. the domain name will probably change as soon as I think of something better. Stay tuned.
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